Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness

I found out today that the first people from my platoon are leaving on Tuesday. To say that this shit has finally hit home is an understatement. I have been fighting alot with my husband lately. Petty things really. It doesn't last but we both know why. Things have been better between us than they have been in along time. We have been through just about everything a couple can go through, and through every hardship, we have immerged stronger and better people. Yet again we are faced with another difficult task ahead...deployment. It's not the first time we've had to say goodbye, but this may be the hardest one. No amount of words can describe the utter sadness I feel about leaving my family behind. But I do look forward to the ultimate reward...